im weak as i cant do anything but to hide somewhere
but for how long can i hold
i must leave everything in a sudden
why must it be this way and now and yesterday and upcoming monday
after planning my future and my focusing on it!
after trying the best to get high gpa score!
how far can i go after this?
is this the punnishment or (hikmah) coming from god
this just ruined everything,every single thing
the situation coming closer and closer and deep closer
leaving friends,goodfriends,bestfriends,even everyone that i knew now.
deep under the happy person of me,there's a tears in me
i feel restless right now
how am i gonna face my family?
how am i gonna face my friends?
how am i gonna face the public?
as im writing this.
tears keep dropping non stop.
i just dissapoint everyone.
why is luck always not on my side?
and why is it always be me?
regretting now is useless because it wont make any better.
i have to face it like a MAN now (as brother-in-law said)
i have to be tough in this.
i need to be strong in this.
i have to face what i have to.
but i am not right now.
im weak.i cant even support myself
im not even 18 yet and my teenage life just stopped
what will i do in the next years or generation.
i got a BIG problem right now.
i think i shall stop this right now
ps:
- im sorry to raudha for not coming down to your pit today celebrating your birthday.soo yeah, HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAUDHA!
- im sorry yaqin,chris,afiq,akiff and raudha for not celebrating our weekly bandung day today at pasir ris.
- im sorry happy family and cherry for not able to meet you guys for the town/sentosa outing today.
- im sorry shaf for making you mad yest on the phone for not telling you what really happened
- im sorry fatyn for feeling curious abt it.nothing got to do with you.but remember the promise alright.
- im sorry family for making it hard and rocky for everything i made.
- im sorry everyone who's gonna ask me whats happening and the answer is that im not telling it.soo dont bother asking.
- iloveyou all friends,im sorry if i dissapoint everyone now.i have to be prepared to lose everything right now as i dont wished to ):
